Failing to Adult, life as a creative

Time isn’t Flying…It’s Fucking Skyrocketing… Or maybe Diving… Perspective

Couldn’t find a stock photo so “hello”

I can’t believe that it’s been almost a month since my last post. Living with someone narcissistically abusive and bipolar can be really difficult but eventually you have to realize that you don’t need to burn yourself in order to help someone else. Life is definitely looking up as I plan my apartment to move to and keep moving forward. Life doesn’t stop for your own personal problems so you have to find a way to move with it.

Talking about not stopping, did anyone just blink, and more than half the year has already gone by? This year has been a rollercoaster of very high highs and low lows and also a big experience for me when it comes to maturing as I realized things about my life that have been helping me move forward.

There are moments in life where you look at things through the lens of a trusting and innocent child and up until a certain point we retain that innocence even in our adulthood and there are moments in life that the veil is lifted from our eyes and we examine things with unusual clarity.

Understanding myself is one of the major things I’ve been doing the past year’s especially since I got diagnosed with ADHD. I’ve also been looking at horoscopes and was surprised to find that my sun is a water sign and my ascendant is a fire sign. I’ve always called myself a juxtaposition of opposing personalities but didn’t realize just how much that’s true. I know there’s going go be the eye roll of the intellectual bunch who don’t give two fucks about such things but it really has made me understand certain things about my life. I mean the time that my phone, laptop and life practically broke a part a few years back happened while Mercury was in retrograde.

I’ve been feeling more at peace as I venture forward with confidence and caution especially as I’ve learned the meaning of true independence through the entire Covid-19 situation. I could not fathom another situation where I’m forced to stay in a certain place and live with someone unbearable due to an international pandemic and learned that true independence is also being ready for whatever catastrophe comes my way.

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